Human Givens Psychotherapy

10 years ago I was a normal young mum living a happy life aside from normal worry’s I lived in a blissful mind.

One ordinary Friday in the first few weeks of a much wanted second pregnancy I was in pain - a lot of pain , this pain was dismissed by drs at first but I knew my own body ( a feeling that ultimately led me to struggle to trust and to rely on myself )  - I was suffering an ectopic pregnancy and internally bleeding which required emergency surgery to remove my left fallopian tube and save my life. Looking back I now realise this experience was when it all started…. That 1 in 1000 chance that brush with death? - I became pregnant soon after and tried hard to focus on that. the pregnancy was viable and progressing well but I wasn’t me any more ? Something changed I wasn’t happy - I wasn’t relaxed or calm and became plagued with anxiety. I didn’t even think it was down to the trauma I didn’t see it as a trauma, to me it was bad luck and a bad experience I now know this was a trauma and it changed me .

The what ifs and the realisation I wasn’t invincible - no one is had unlocked a fear causing me seek reassurance from professionals and falling down a googling symptoms rabbit hole daily as well as being hyper vigilant and self checking.

These behaviours were eating into my time and fuelling anxiety further causing me to reassurance seek more and then feel shameful this cycle continues . I isolated myself and masked my way through those months and years. GPs offered me anti depressants which i refused due to a fear of the side effects. I felt lost and utterly drained fighting an invisible illness which people would often belittle and dismiss as silly or irrational or your a hypercondriac I hate that word even now !! but to me it was real and the impending doom was constant I wasted so much time and wish someone had encouraged me to seek help sooner  - but looking back on the surface I was fine - normal Lucy , showed up - hid my thoughts but underneath it was a deep dark pain . I made the decision to see a therapist first I tried CBT and person centred but fast forward and I was still struggling i then discovered The human givens approach. Practical holistic and solution based therapy designed to help you understand your emotional needs and to meet them .At this time I was working as a specialist children practitioner for a substance misuse charity and noticed such a lack in services and help for those in need for children and adults in so many areas of mental health. Skip ahead a bit more it was like a calling to me  and I took the plunge to see if my experience could help others. I spent 3 years completing my human givens diploma absorbing and immersing myself in every area I could . Volunteering , working and pushing myself to be the best version I could  .

This year I opened my own practice and I have not looked back . I want to give others the chance of a brighter better future and to be able to meet there needs and thrive. without realising it this journey to help others was helping me far more than I could ever explain - I feel I have found my purpose and if one person can walk out of my practice and feel better and make a difference then my work is done . 

This quote hit me when I was super low  if u can think negatively you can think positively.